Life

How much do you value your life or the life you are leading? Do you sometimes tell yourself that you are in the pits? Do you tell yourself why are other people luckier than you are etc etc? Quite often I do ask myself such questions but never have I been able to give myself an answer or at least a real answer. Today is no different!

Just last week, I visited my grandaunt at dear old yishun... a trip which normally i dread (the travelling not the visiting) as it really takes a long time to get there. However this trip has been long overdue and something which I am ashamed to say. :(

As I spoke to her that day, I am grateful that she still remembers me and that she does not hold agst me for not visiting her. At the same time, I can't help but feel guilt and sadness..but also a appreciation of life.

My grandaunt is abt 85 yrs old..and growing old is something that no one can stop but having to look upon the process of seeing your loved one growing old sometimes can really hurt. As I talk to her, I realise that her eyesight is failing her coz she no longer see me while talking to me. As I watch her eat her meal, she is unable to feed herself as she is unable to hold her spoon on her own. During my time there, I had to control myself from shedding a tear as I don't want her to know but as I make my journey home, I can't control myself but to shed tears. (hope no one on the bus saw it)I don't know if these tears were tears of guilt, sadness or pity, all I knew was it just came flowing uncontrollingly.As I ponder upon this that day and now, I only know that whatever difficult time we go through, or we having a bad time at work, the end result is the same. One day, we will grow really old and we might be a state of helplessness, so rather than making ourselves unhappy now, why not make the best of it and value the life you have and the people around you now!

A quote that I saw on discovery channel " Travelling is about the journey and not the end destination", well so is LIFE!