New Look

Got my hair cut like 2 weeks ago.. this haircut is different from my usual as normally I only have a wash and cut..this time round, i decided to get it either colour or in my actual case, highlighted and a little tail at the back. :)

So why the sudden change.. I dunno really.. but since me switching to my current job, somehow change seems to be a good thing to do or have, it seems to add that element of fun which I somehow miss for quite a long time. Maybe it is due to the fact that I am no longer slogging my ass off studying, I actually have a little more time to realise about myself and yes, I think I am boring. So thus the change? Maybe...maybe not.

The interesting part about me having this haircut is the reaction that I have received. I remember when I went to office, the first thing people said to me was :" WHAT HAPPENED?" or "OH MY GOD, WHAT DID YOU DO TO YOUR HAIR?" Such reaction seem like goodness, it is something really horrible but instead after they gotten over the "shock" they do think that overall, it looks good on me! hahaha

All I can say is, Kudos to Gin!


A snapshot

Office kampong move

Come next week monday, I will be having a new office kampong.Am I looking forward to it? Hell NO! Why you might ask? These are the facts;

1. I am seated at a place where my boss has perfect view of my back (and I can't see her at all)
2. My neighbour is an infamously known tough cookie - whenever someone ask me who is my neighbour, this is their response:" ohh yes liquidicemouse, you are right, no one is going to dare go to your desk anymore!"
3. I am seated with people who are at management level, I am the smallest 'fry' there
4. Apparently the biggest bossie (not my boss) is a neat freak, thus he is absolutely not fond of people who have messy table or have alot of stuff on their desk
5. I no longer able to enjoy natural lighting, only artifical. (ok ok this reasoning is crap, not that I ever had a window seat anyway)

p/s: the partition for each desk is close to non-existent, as an estimate, the height of the partition is only height of a mug?!? imagine, I can't even yawn openly without people noticing, least to even consider digging my nose!

I guess what "upset" me the most is the fact that I can't be myself or be noisy alittle which at my current place I can do so to a certain extent. I feel that because of my personality or my little craziness, I am able to 'break' the ice with colleagues faster compared to others. Breaking ice with people does take time and effort and I see this just going down the drain. Plus, to be in a noisier or lively environment sure beat a boring one isn't it?

Oh what the hell, I will make the best out of the situation!

reflections on chameleon 360

It's been a month since my close encounters with chameleon 360 and I must say, it has been one roller coaster ride. Attitude she give, niceness she give... like anything you get/do frequently, you just become immune to it after some point in time.

Late last week and this week is probably my "lucky" week as chameleon 360 has been tokking to me on her own free will... better yet, have lunch wif her (but again this is becoz SN ask her to come along) and acting like good old buddies. In normal circumstance, I do still tok to her abit here and there but it is all small tok.

Reflecting on how i reacted toward her, I feel quite disgusted with myself as it is so damn fake as I clearly do not wish to establish any closer friendship with her but yet I still pretend to be nice. Why am I doing that? The only reason I can think of is, I don't wish to betray what I believe in, which is "never do unto people what people do unto you"... but does this justify the behaviour of being a fake or this is just plain survival instinct?